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I wish I had more optimistic and joyful blogs as of late, but alas, I do not. The universe has been telling me loud and clear that I should have left this year. SPOILER ALERT*** This will be an emo complainy blog. But it gets slightly optimistic/cocky near the end.

To begin, a great deal of my close friends moved away. I knew it was coming but it has really hit me when I sit at home alone and wonder what I used to do. Ruth lives in Chico, Colleen and Adie live in Humboldt, Victoria Louisville, My friend big black gay Corey moved to Laramie, Wyoming.  Even people like Mike Holcombe have moved to LA. After Matt Marr’s house burnt down he has been traveling and he is now sure he will move to L.A. Needless to say, my social life has taken a hit. I stay in a lot more evenings by myself reading, writing, or watching various marathons of House, Law and Order SVU, or something. I have just been lonely I guess.

My Mom’s car is gold sebring convertible, the symbol of summer, and the car I learned how to drive on. There have been so many times where Ruth, John Farns, and I are hung over and we roll out of bed and drive with the top down to theriver. And drink some 4 Locos. My brother needed a car so we decided to give that one to him. Now my mom and I share the Scion, she needs it more of course having a real job and all… back to the bike for me. :-/

It seems lately that love has been in the air (cheesy yes, but hear me out). So many of my friends are involved with someone and so happy. Max and Amanda, John Farns, Kelsey, Ruth, etc etc. Momentarily I was kinda seeing someone and happy, and for just a moment it seemed everyone was happy. But then of course I found out that I had simply got swept up in ideas of being in a relationship and misinterpreted some things and ended up putting myself in a situation that allowed me to get hurt by others actions. Whatevs, I’m done. I’m single and unattached completely. Time gave me clarity to realize I was being stupid, and I really don’t care. I AM happy for all my friends, I am happy being single Devin, and I am a better person for not dating people who are bad for me. But I do always seem to be the odd man out in these situations. It wears on me a bit.

The cherry on top of my delightful banana shit sundae of a situation I have been in… The one job I have babysitting at a church every Sunday That I have had for 4 years. Such an easy job that I LOVE that is easy money in my pocket….. Well, they laid me off on Sunday. Not because of me at all, they can just not afford child care at all anymore. I have one more

Sunday and that’s it. FUCK. My one source of income. Fuck. My. Life. This is effective September 1st. Why does that day sound familiar? Oh, cause its the day of my court date. (Yes, I have a court date. I got into a little trouble. Hopefully it will be nothing, but it might be. I will disclose the full story after its all said and done. Nothing crazy don’t worry)

My brother looked at my situation like this “so you’re basically back to where you started when you moved to Sacramento, no car, no job, no relationship, few friends” Somehow that is oddly comforting. Something of a new beginning happening right now. Life has dealt me some rotten ass lemons right now, and I am powering through but its hard. I can deal with the no job, no car, no money thing. But it just really sucks that everything has been taken away at the same time. The time I need friends. Who aren’t here.

At the moment, I am not attending school. I would probably set myself back further if I went. I need a job(and I have been applying!)

Right now I am living day at a time with very short term achievable goals. apply for jobs, work out everyday, drink less, and get cast in a play next week. So far so good. I do work out everyday I have a new gym membership and I have been going hard. If nothing else in life I will look good without my shirt on.

I chose the cute apocalypse gif at the top because its really cute and the general complete change of everything in my life recently, and because of Mike Wise’s Post Apocalypse Party he had. Which was awesome. Pictures at the bottom. There is always a lot of parties, this last weekend was Mady Wrights 36 hour birthday party which was fun and…. eventful.

This is a reminder to the world and myself that I am fucking awesome. I do good things and have fun. There are great

people in my life, and I know now more than ever who they are. I have come upon some rough times recently and ya know what? It might get worse, it could always. But I have dealt with way more problems in my life than some little bull shit like this. I’m a baller with some of the best friends, and the BEST family anyone could ask for. Don’t give me your pity, today ain’t nothing but a hair flip. It might be just like this for a long time, but there is peace and some success at the end of this trail. It shouldn’t be easy and its not. Never has been. I have been blessed in many ways that I am quietly thankful for and find myself to sometimes be the luckiest person alive. Lately has just been a string of losses that have warn me down, I have to admit I am down and move on though. I’m not blaming fate or the world for my problems, many of them are direct results of my actions and I know that. I’m down but I’m not out. I’m ready for new shit and prepared to take on whatever I need to. Oh yeah, and I’m hot.

I leave you with another new Eminem song, featuring Pink (whom I fuckin love)

WONT. BACK. DOWN.

Peace.

My adorable cousin Mira

Howdy dear readers, another long week. Reno, parties, family visiting, LOST ending. [OMG]

I want to first discuss the response of my last blog. It was mostly positive and supportive. Thank you, it means a lot that many of can even sit through my long winded ramblings. But the main complaint with my blog is that writing or talking about something doesn’t fix anything. I’m basically just whiny. I disagree completely. This is step one. This is therapy this is diary. This is what helps me.

Last week my theatre celebrated its end of the year ball, I was awarded “Best Supporting Actor” (sort of a conciliation prize instead of winning one of the Irene Ryan nominations, oh well) and Best Drunk… On Stage” How appropriate. A lot of fun drinking and dancing with the masquerade theme. But then the rest of my night, with the help of Gerald (what we call the bag from boxed wine) and Matt Marr, was serious drunken shenanigans, which resulted in me missing the only work I have in a week. Haven’t done that in nearly a year. I did learn a lesson that night.

My friends who are legitimately moving on from school felt like clubbing, so of course I am there. Drinks, flirting, dancing, and smoking. I starting losing my voice very badly. A few days of partying, a lack of sleep, and breathing air in Reno turned my voice into something of a gutteral gravely lawnmower sound, which I assure you was not sexy. The Reno trip was a success, managed to only spend $20 on the whole trip. It was my friend Colton’s 21st birthday. Colton, Max, James, Colleen and I just walked around drank and danced wearing sunglasses everywhere looking like bad asses for  2 days. I did start to get pretty sick and my voice was completely gone for a time, but what was I suppose to do? I still had to be there for another day, and god save me from Reno whilst sober. Everyone had a great time, but it is decided… I am a Vegas guy.

When I look back on my week, the best part of was playing with my 18 month old cousin Mira (well, cousin’s daughter… second cousin?). We played with bubbles, drew with chalk, and mostly she just chased me and played “sleepy sleep” (thats when she says “sleepy sleep”, and we pretend to be asleep for like 5 seconds.) Out of all the “fun” I had drinking and clubbing this week, this was the most genuine fun. I love children and I am super good with them. But it’s fleeting, at this age they will hardly remember me and when she is 10 I will be 30. And we wont play together anymore. This happened to too many people for me, and its the burden of being younger in an older family.  What I’m saying is that I do long for having children in my life, lets hope for being the fun uncle Devin first. Not too soon…

I have a desperate need to find a job now. Having my own earned money in my pocket will help my perspective. That is this weeks goal. Haven’t even drank or smoked in a few days and I feel better. Crazy huh? Yay me. The past few days I have done nothing, just rehabd at home and played sleepy sleep by myself. and that what I needed. Hibernation.

I have been realizing more and more that anyone can read this. And I have stopped being discrete. Which is kind of empowering actually. I don’t mean to do this for shock value, but to be true to myself. But seeing my hits increase back to the hundreds gives me anxiety. But again I thank you all so much for coming and reading.

Now the reason you are all here I’m sure…

CUTE BABY PICTURES!!!!

(I didn’t edit them, so the Mira files are huge, might take a minute to load)

peace

I will blog about LOST real soon!!

Merry Christmas everybody!

Went to SoCal last week to go pick up my Grandma and take her home with us to stay for a couple weeks and have Christmas and new years with us. It has been very chill, lots of food, watching elf, watching Christmas movies, and just hanging out.

I got some sweet presents too. I got an Itouch(I have gone wayyyy too long with out an ipod), a nice coach wallet, some movies, some CDs, some money. Oh and my sister got me a ridiculous huge canvas mounted print of myself from the body paint shoot I did with Terri. lol.

Here’s pictures of our tree and decorations and such. The white tree is my sisters tree. She has always wanted a flocked tree, but we never let her get one and then her boyfriend of 5 years never let her get one. Now she lives on her own and can get whatever tacky decorations she wants. I’m actually pretty proud. Not only does it have fake snow on it. Its is sparkling and glittery and covered in pink lights. Perfect.

Happy Christmas you guys!

**this marks one year exactly since I redid the website completely yay!!

peace

The Ritchie Kids

Yay, my sister finally emailed me the pictures from my 22nd birthday. My family and I went to San Francisco for lovefest. We got a hotel. Partied.  The usual. Sean Kinsey, Max Miller, Paul Telford, Terri Brindisi, and Chris Carlson all partied with us. It was ten shades of amazing. We went to lovefest during the day, got some good seafood in the wharf, partied in our hotel, and then walked around the city being drunken fools and ending up at nok nok in the Haight. Dancing my face off. Then the next day we all went to the Hardly Strictly Bluegrass festival in Golden Gate park.

Enjoy ^_^

peace

This picture was from back in like April at second Saturday with my brother and Mom. (look how beardy I was!)

Just an update to say what’s up. It’s December, and it’s getting to be Christmas time. Which means a my mom bakes and watches trashy hallmark holiday movies nonstop. I wear layers, long coats, and finally get to show off my scarf collection. I love this time of year. So much. My mom makes soup and scones and I light a fire and hang lights. Brilliant. And it actually snowed in Sacramento!

It’s week two of No Drink December. I have substituted coffee, tea, and hot chocolate for the alcohol this month. So far so good. I have definitely had to rethink my ways of getting to know people. Gone are the ways of bonding over taking shots and letting our guards down. I actually have to try to engage sober conversations with new people. Which is really great though. I have been getting to know a couple new people. We’ll see where this goes. Dating is fun, and without alcohol, is mostly genuine.

I have been doing a lot of improv. Which is really the only substantial money I have to make right now. I also performed in Winnie the pooh again this year, except instead of narrator this year I was Tigger and Owl. That was fun.Anything for a few bucks right now.

I have also been fucking up auditions again. Last week I auditioned for a murder mystery at ARC and I got a callback for the lead, great. Then I auditioned for Metamorphoses at Sac State. I had never auditioned there, fucked it up royally, and then got a callback (wtf?). Problem was they were both on the same night. So I went to Sac State first and left after about an hour and a half. STUPID. And then I went to AR and read all night for the lead. Of course, as it goes with ARC everytime, they call me back and “consider me”, tell me how great I’m doing. String me along to the very end and then give it to someone else.  I am super happy for my friends who get cast, truly. But I am done. I am so mad at myself for leaving such a sweet play for the chance to be in a murder mystery. I had this romantic dream about finally doing a lead at ARC, but yet again, I had to touch the stove to know that it’s hot. Anyways…. that was a rant.

Here’s cute pictures of me being domestic! I made a trifle for thankgiving! It’s layers of gingerbread, vanilla pudding, pumpkin pie filling, whip cream. crushed up ginger snaps, and caramel. It was sorta amazing.

mmmm yummy.

I leave you with what gets me into the Christmas mood. Sufjan Stevens.

peace out.

First real photo shoot with short hair! My friend Patti does face painting and wanted some body painting pictures for her portfolio, so me and a few of my friends got painted and Terri Brindisi shot us. Check em out, I got a bunch more coming soon.

I got a little sloppy on the photo shop, I’ll go back and touch em up.

this next one gets nearly risque…. my pants are just awfully low, just warning you.

I look like a god damn suicide boy… haha, more coming soon!

peace.

Hey guys, it is well past due for another update.

Here’s whats up.

First of all, there was Halloween. A bunch of friends from Comedy Sportz all dressed up in steam punk costumes. It was pretty sick.

Yeah, it was amazeballs. We had a show, then I went to a huge blowout party in Elk Grove. I remeber drinking, _____________, and then I remember waking up in the living room. Apparently my friends couldnt find me for hours, they checked everywhere, and those are the hours that I dont remember at all. Kinda troubling that I lost 3 hours from my life. Halloween was fun though.

I also blacked out from boozahol a week before that. Something I had been making a habit out of I guess, I’m not sure why. So I decided to cool it on the booze for a little bit.

And then on Tuesday Nov. 3rd Bryce Marck Called me and asked if I wanted to come down and go to Disneyland for free the next day on his birthday. I agreed and picked up my shit took Matt Marr and on we went. It was a terrible plan for me to go. I didn’t have any money, I had classes that I missed, and it probably wasn’t a great idea to put that many miles on my car. But regardless, we went. Disneyland was awesome, I hadnt been in over 2 years, and I am a total disney geek. Sad thing is we didn’t take any pictures…. Sorry. It was super awesome though, and not busy at all. That night we went out and drank with some of my long lost SoCal friends, Dustin York, Bethany Deal, and Brandon Boone. Needless to say, we got shwastey. This was apparent when I ended up drinking beer out of coffee cups wearing a girls tight black tanktop, huge sunglasses, and a leopard snuggie. Good times.

When I got back to Sacramento I realized the jig wa sup and the time for me to get a real person job is finally here. I had once told myself that I am never going to have a regular job ever again, just jobs I actually like or want to do. But that dream is no longer realistic at this time. I went and applied to several places in Arden. I interviewed and had a second interview at Juicy Couture. So hopefully that will work out and I will have money. I cant imagine a world in which I am not paying for gas one gallon at a time and buying 40’s of mickeys with change.

I am all around not sure what I am doing with my life, hence the lack of updates. I don’t know what I am doing, why would I blog about it? My mood has been sort of erratic, I’m up and down. Generally chemically imbalanced. I have lost quite a bit of patience for people, and feel fine spending time by myself recently, this is both good and bad. I previously had been dating a few people casually, but they have all faded away for one reason or another and now I am very single.

I have been doing a lot of work designing on the American River Review Literary Magazine. Graphic design just might be something I could realy get into. I also am still plugging along with my screenwriting class, writing has been very easy for me lately, which is odd. Still taking a break from theatre, but I see a lot of theatre. There are some shows I may audition for soon. I’m continuing to do improv at Comedy Sportz which has been going pretty well recently.

I feel something big should change soon. Should being the key word.

Fall is always my favorite time of year. It’s also the hardest though.

I have missed  you guys.

I’ll post more later, just thought I would catch you up lately.

oh and I made this!

peace