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Thought I would check in for one last update before 2009 is officially over. I am working on a very large all inclusive year in review post that isn’t quite ready yet, plus I want to include New Years Eve in it. Speaking of which, me and a big group of people Ruthie, Johnny Farns, Terri, etc. are heading to San Francisco for new years drunken shenanagins. Well were meeting at my sisters place in Pleasanton for drinks first then taking BART into the city. I will surely report on what kinda trouble we get into.

After all, No Drink December ends today! woot, it was really good for me. Made me really realize some of my drinking habits and the fact that alcohol really isn’t my problem, my problem is excess. I learned that when I defected to other drugs while I wasn’t drinking. But I have always had a problem with excess even if its just hanging out with people; I drown in a sea of acquaintances, social activities,  and parties. But I digress, I at least know this better about myself now. And will change my habits. I was actually surprised how easy it was to not drink for a month, I feel like I should maybe take a year off. Or ya know, I could just drink responsibly.

Tomorrow (Jan. 1st) is Johnny Farns’ 21st birthday. So we will be also celebrating that at midnight tonight. Tonight will be good.

look for my 2009 year in review post in a couple days.

So long 2009, you were pretty good to me. Way better than fuckin 2008.

peace.

This picture was from back in like April at second Saturday with my brother and Mom. (look how beardy I was!)

Just an update to say what’s up. It’s December, and it’s getting to be Christmas time. Which means a my mom bakes and watches trashy hallmark holiday movies nonstop. I wear layers, long coats, and finally get to show off my scarf collection. I love this time of year. So much. My mom makes soup and scones and I light a fire and hang lights. Brilliant. And it actually snowed in Sacramento!

It’s week two of No Drink December. I have substituted coffee, tea, and hot chocolate for the alcohol this month. So far so good. I have definitely had to rethink my ways of getting to know people. Gone are the ways of bonding over taking shots and letting our guards down. I actually have to try to engage sober conversations with new people. Which is really great though. I have been getting to know a couple new people. We’ll see where this goes. Dating is fun, and without alcohol, is mostly genuine.

I have been doing a lot of improv. Which is really the only substantial money I have to make right now. I also performed in Winnie the pooh again this year, except instead of narrator this year I was Tigger and Owl. That was fun.Anything for a few bucks right now.

I have also been fucking up auditions again. Last week I auditioned for a murder mystery at ARC and I got a callback for the lead, great. Then I auditioned for Metamorphoses at Sac State. I had never auditioned there, fucked it up royally, and then got a callback (wtf?). Problem was they were both on the same night. So I went to Sac State first and left after about an hour and a half. STUPID. And then I went to AR and read all night for the lead. Of course, as it goes with ARC everytime, they call me back and “consider me”, tell me how great I’m doing. String me along to the very end and then give it to someone else.  I am super happy for my friends who get cast, truly. But I am done. I am so mad at myself for leaving such a sweet play for the chance to be in a murder mystery. I had this romantic dream about finally doing a lead at ARC, but yet again, I had to touch the stove to know that it’s hot. Anyways…. that was a rant.

Here’s cute pictures of me being domestic! I made a trifle for thankgiving! It’s layers of gingerbread, vanilla pudding, pumpkin pie filling, whip cream. crushed up ginger snaps, and caramel. It was sorta amazing.

mmmm yummy.

I leave you with what gets me into the Christmas mood. Sufjan Stevens.

peace out.

As you might have noticed through my blogs, tweets, or by knowing me, I drink and party a fuck ton. Recent occurrences of getting too shwasty, be it puking, blacking out, or just generally making mistakes has brought this to light for me.

When addiction becomes a problem is when your addiction affects your life in adverse ways. Social life, work life, or personal. This hasn’t been a problem until recently. I slept through work this morning at 9am because I stayed up drinking until 6am. Wow, that’s a problem. I work one day a week. Effectively I am a fuck up. I have just been using partying and drinking as a distraction from being an adult.

So I decided I needed a break. NO DRINK DECEMBER. It’s happening.

I didn’t mean to get super serious here and bring down the mood, but I feel I need to write about this. I am an alcoholic, and need to take a break before it gets bad. I don’t want you to think that I am raging alcoholic who has to drink everyday and before I do anything. That is really not the case. I just go to a lot of parties and have lost sight of my limits.

When I told my friends about this most of them were like “oh no! devin its the holidays, how could you not drink?”. But guys, I’m serious. I’m just taking a month off, I promise I’m still fun.

So who else wants to do no drink December? Ruth and John are doing it with me.