To begin, a great deal of my close friends moved away. I knew it was coming but it has really hit me when I sit at home alone and wonder what I used to do. Ruth lives in Chico, Colleen and Adie live in Humboldt, Victoria Louisville, My friend big black gay Corey moved to Laramie, Wyoming.  Even people like Mike Holcombe have moved to LA. After Matt Marr’s house burnt down he has been traveling and he is now sure he will move to L.A. Needless to say, my social life has taken a hit. I stay in a lot more evenings by myself reading, writing, or watching various marathons of House, Law and Order SVU, or something. I have just been lonely I guess.

My Mom’s car is gold sebring convertible, the symbol of summer, and the car I learned how to drive on. There have been so many times where Ruth, John Farns, and I are hung over and we roll out of bed and drive with the top down to theriver. And drink some 4 Locos. My brother needed a car so we decided to give that one to him. Now my mom and I share the Scion, she needs it more of course having a real job and all… back to the bike for me. :-/

It seems lately that love has been in the air (cheesy yes, but hear me out). So many of my friends are involved with someone and so happy. Max and Amanda, John Farns, Kelsey, Ruth, etc etc. Momentarily I was kinda seeing someone and happy, and for just a moment it seemed everyone was happy. But then of course I found out that I had simply got swept up in ideas of being in a relationship and misinterpreted some things and ended up putting myself in a situation that allowed me to get hurt by others actions. Whatevs, I’m done. I’m single and unattached completely. Time gave me clarity to realize I was being stupid, and I really don’t care. I AM happy for all my friends, I am happy being single Devin, and I am a better person for not dating people who are bad for me. But I do always seem to be the odd man out in these situations. It wears on me a bit.

The cherry on top of my delightful banana shit sundae of a situation I have been in… The one job I have babysitting at a church every Sunday That I have had for 4 years. Such an easy job that I LOVE that is easy money in my pocket….. Well, they laid me off on Sunday. Not because of me at all, they can just not afford child care at all anymore. I have one more

Sunday and that’s it. FUCK. My one source of income. Fuck. My. Life. This is effective September 1st. Why does that day sound familiar? Oh, cause its the day of my court date. (Yes, I have a court date. I got into a little trouble. Hopefully it will be nothing, but it might be. I will disclose the full story after its all said and done. Nothing crazy don’t worry)

My brother looked at my situation like this “so you’re basically back to where you started when you moved to Sacramento, no car, no job, no relationship, few friends” Somehow that is oddly comforting. Something of a new beginning happening right now. Life has dealt me some rotten ass lemons right now, and I am powering through but its hard. I can deal with the no job, no car, no money thing. But it just really sucks that everything has been taken away at the same time. The time I need friends. Who aren’t here.

At the moment, I am not attending school. I would probably set myself back further if I went. I need a job(and I have been applying!)

Right now I am living day at a time with very short term achievable goals. apply for jobs, work out everyday, drink less, and get cast in a play next week. So far so good. I do work out everyday I have a new gym membership and I have been going hard. If nothing else in life I will look good without my shirt on.

I chose the cute apocalypse gif at the top because its really cute and the general complete change of everything in my life recently, and because of Mike Wise’s Post Apocalypse Party he had. Which was awesome. Pictures at the bottom. There is always a lot of parties, this last weekend was Mady Wrights 36 hour birthday party which was fun and…. eventful.

This is a reminder to the world and myself that I am fucking awesome. I do good things and have fun. There are great

people in my life, and I know now more than ever who they are. I have come upon some rough times recently and ya know what? It might get worse, it could always. But I have dealt with way more problems in my life than some little bull shit like this. I’m a baller with some of the best friends, and the BEST family anyone could ask for. Don’t give me your pity, today ain’t nothing but a hair flip. It might be just like this for a long time, but there is peace and some success at the end of this trail. It shouldn’t be easy and its not. Never has been. I have been blessed in many ways that I am quietly thankful for and find myself to sometimes be the luckiest person alive. Lately has just been a string of losses that have warn me down, I have to admit I am down and move on though. I’m not blaming fate or the world for my problems, many of them are direct results of my actions and I know that. I’m down but I’m not out. I’m ready for new shit and prepared to take on whatever I need to. Oh yeah, and I’m hot.

I leave you with another new Eminem song, featuring Pink (whom I fuckin love)

WONT. BACK. DOWN.

Peace.

Naturally I have been trying to get out of Sacramento, even if its for little trips. I did a Comedy Sportz show in Richmond (…for the free masons) and then partied in San Francisco with John Michals. Got a Beer with Steven Zupan, drank with Ryan Fiola, then ran into Paul Telford at some bars. Good to get out of town. I went again just to hang out with Maggie and Tim Muldoon. All we ever do is drink, play wii golf, and Maggie and I sing “Islands in the Stream” real loud over and over to annoy Tim. It was lovely. Then had a cute dinner party with my sister. Good relaxing few days that has me thinking about the future. Plans are being formulated and discussed with my family. I don’t want to divulge anything until I am sure. But know this: There will be a move soon in my future. A big one.

I went to an open casting call for Survivor last week. Got interviewed on camera and picture taken. It’s a long shot but we shall see Fingers crossed. That would be so Awesome!

I have been reading and being able to focus on goals recently (crazy right???). Each blog sounds like a rerun, “things are changing, blah blah blah, I need to get a job, I went to a party and drank, etc” But I’m not sorry, you’re at devinritchie.com you dont get to complain about about content.

OH!!! Speaking of DevinRitchie.com, our 5th anniversary is August 1st! What should I do for it??

Here’s some pictures Bryce took from a few weeks ago when we all went out to Lipstick at Old Ironsides

It has been an eventful couple weeks. As You Like It opened, it has been so fun and a good experience. My brother and sister had their traditional birthday party. They rented out Red Feather winery in Livermore and had about 70 people come. It was a real good time, got to see a lot of people from high school or people I hadn’t seen in like 5 years. It was a trip. Got tipsy and stripped whilst hula hooping. The usual.

My grandma, mom, and I went to the Alameda county fair the next day I discovered my love for betting on horse racing. or maybe just because it reminds me of The Hold Steady song Chips Ahoy. (video sucks though).

My motivation to get a job has been sullied to do my illness, going out of town, being in a play, and having so much terrible television on. I can only blame myself and I do. But I actually have been applying and interviewing for jobs. Some promising prospects.

Other than that I have been going to the river, working on my tan, and making peace with myself. I’m doing a lot better than usual. I feel great. My Mom and Grandma went away for a weekend and it gave me good time to reconnect with Bryce Marck, Matt Marr, and John Farnsworth. One of those times when you just realize why you are friends with certain people and not as much with other people. When it’s sunrise and we all need to get up to go feed horses, and we don’t mind cause were all doing it. Then we pick up a 24 pack of PBR at 7am, naturally.

Love life is what it always is. Really the EXACT SAME. Was thinking about Jeff for a second again, and than no. Again. Frank Fox made his way up here again, and that was nice. But who knows what that could be. Had a crush on someone for once but of course got passed up for a strait guy. Naturally. Back to square one. …Ladies?

I gotta go shower and get for my show tonight… jebus..

Peace

I leave you with Sufjan Steven’s cover of Joni Mitchel’s Free Man In Paris.

My adorable cousin Mira

Howdy dear readers, another long week. Reno, parties, family visiting, LOST ending. [OMG]

I want to first discuss the response of my last blog. It was mostly positive and supportive. Thank you, it means a lot that many of can even sit through my long winded ramblings. But the main complaint with my blog is that writing or talking about something doesn’t fix anything. I’m basically just whiny. I disagree completely. This is step one. This is therapy this is diary. This is what helps me.

Last week my theatre celebrated its end of the year ball, I was awarded “Best Supporting Actor” (sort of a conciliation prize instead of winning one of the Irene Ryan nominations, oh well) and Best Drunk… On Stage” How appropriate. A lot of fun drinking and dancing with the masquerade theme. But then the rest of my night, with the help of Gerald (what we call the bag from boxed wine) and Matt Marr, was serious drunken shenanigans, which resulted in me missing the only work I have in a week. Haven’t done that in nearly a year. I did learn a lesson that night.

My friends who are legitimately moving on from school felt like clubbing, so of course I am there. Drinks, flirting, dancing, and smoking. I starting losing my voice very badly. A few days of partying, a lack of sleep, and breathing air in Reno turned my voice into something of a gutteral gravely lawnmower sound, which I assure you was not sexy. The Reno trip was a success, managed to only spend $20 on the whole trip. It was my friend Colton’s 21st birthday. Colton, Max, James, Colleen and I just walked around drank and danced wearing sunglasses everywhere looking like bad asses for  2 days. I did start to get pretty sick and my voice was completely gone for a time, but what was I suppose to do? I still had to be there for another day, and god save me from Reno whilst sober. Everyone had a great time, but it is decided… I am a Vegas guy.

When I look back on my week, the best part of was playing with my 18 month old cousin Mira (well, cousin’s daughter… second cousin?). We played with bubbles, drew with chalk, and mostly she just chased me and played “sleepy sleep” (thats when she says “sleepy sleep”, and we pretend to be asleep for like 5 seconds.) Out of all the “fun” I had drinking and clubbing this week, this was the most genuine fun. I love children and I am super good with them. But it’s fleeting, at this age they will hardly remember me and when she is 10 I will be 30. And we wont play together anymore. This happened to too many people for me, and its the burden of being younger in an older family.  What I’m saying is that I do long for having children in my life, lets hope for being the fun uncle Devin first. Not too soon…

I have a desperate need to find a job now. Having my own earned money in my pocket will help my perspective. That is this weeks goal. Haven’t even drank or smoked in a few days and I feel better. Crazy huh? Yay me. The past few days I have done nothing, just rehabd at home and played sleepy sleep by myself. and that what I needed. Hibernation.

I have been realizing more and more that anyone can read this. And I have stopped being discrete. Which is kind of empowering actually. I don’t mean to do this for shock value, but to be true to myself. But seeing my hits increase back to the hundreds gives me anxiety. But again I thank you all so much for coming and reading.

Now the reason you are all here I’m sure…

CUTE BABY PICTURES!!!!

(I didn’t edit them, so the Mira files are huge, might take a minute to load)

peace

I will blog about LOST real soon!!

My boys, Johnny Farns, Maxy, and Nick Heacock on BART

Howdy everybody, a lot has been going on so lets waste no time.

The biggest thing is now my maternal Grandma now lives with us here in Sacramento. She has been staying here since Christmas but now its official. We just moved all her stuff up here from Tustin. Obviously this changes my living situation quite a bit. I cant be as, well, for lack of better words, a ridiculous fabulous drunk. She is very old and can no longer live on her own, this is for the best.

Secondly there has been a lot of wonders about my moms job being outsourced, and yes we even toyed with the idea of moving to Atlanta, Georgia. Things are up in the air, but fret not.  It doesn’t look like we will move to GA and my mom will still have a job no matter what. I do not belong in Georgia, I know that, but the adventure might be fun.

Big news! I got cast as Sandy Lord in The Philadelphia Story at ARC!! A really great part and the only part I wanted. This is the first time this has happened for me and I’m an so fucking excited ^_^ we start rehearsals on Monday yay. The play opens April 22nd. I will definitely let you guys know.

Also I have been dating, weird right? haha, I almost feel like I needed to make up for the years where I dated no one. So I have dated a few people the past few months. Most importantly was my first real boyfriend Tim. This was all very new and odd for me. We dated for about a month and half or something. And now were on a break, or broken up, I cant really tell. It’s kinda confusing. Either way, this was kinda a big deal for me personally. I mean I’m 22, time to man up and just get a bf right? I dont even know whats going on with other people I have been casually seeing. Perhaps I just need to get back to being single Devin. I’m much better at that I feel.

Other than all this going on I have just been going to school, hanging out, an partying a lot . Dont worry, I’m being responsible enough. All though I do have a few scrapes and bruises from Reno lol. Long story.

I am now working out cause I started to get lazy and slightly thicker. That was no good.

I’m going to start more honest blogging like this. I just have to decide on where the line of censorship is…

I don’t know where I’m headed, but I am convinced that it’s in a good direction.

Peace.

<<<My theme for 09.

Thought I would check in for one last update before 2009 is officially over. I am working on a very large all inclusive year in review post that isn’t quite ready yet, plus I want to include New Years Eve in it. Speaking of which, me and a big group of people Ruthie, Johnny Farns, Terri, etc. are heading to San Francisco for new years drunken shenanagins. Well were meeting at my sisters place in Pleasanton for drinks first then taking BART into the city. I will surely report on what kinda trouble we get into.

After all, No Drink December ends today! woot, it was really good for me. Made me really realize some of my drinking habits and the fact that alcohol really isn’t my problem, my problem is excess. I learned that when I defected to other drugs while I wasn’t drinking. But I have always had a problem with excess even if its just hanging out with people; I drown in a sea of acquaintances, social activities,  and parties. But I digress, I at least know this better about myself now. And will change my habits. I was actually surprised how easy it was to not drink for a month, I feel like I should maybe take a year off. Or ya know, I could just drink responsibly.

Tomorrow (Jan. 1st) is Johnny Farns’ 21st birthday. So we will be also celebrating that at midnight tonight. Tonight will be good.

look for my 2009 year in review post in a couple days.

So long 2009, you were pretty good to me. Way better than fuckin 2008.

peace.

I apologize for the time when the site was down. The truth is I couldn’t pay my hosting fee, and quite frankly I needed a break from blogging. So I let it go for a couple months, lost all my momentum, my base, and over 100 blog posts. But here is to new beginnings! Cheers!

Now to catch you up on the last few months, first of all. I cut off all my hair.

That’s how long it was. And this is what it looks like now…

and that is my buddy and hair stylist Sean. I cut it for my birthday, I turned 22 on October 3rd. And yes, I did donate my hair to Locks Of Love. On my actual birthday; me, my family, and friends went into San Francisco and us kids went to LovEvolution or Lovefest. We got a hotel, got real real shwasty and it was amazing! Went out and bar hopped in the city and danced my face off. The next day we went to the Hardly Strictly bluegrass festival in Golden Gate park, drank some champagne and had a real nice picnic, also amazing.

I am taking a break from most theatre right now in efforts to refocus my life, and it has been going well. I am taking a full load of units at school with classes like statatistics, screenwriting, ceramics, and a design class for our literary magazine I am really enjoying this semester as different as it is.

I did a readers theatre productions of our lit mag at school and it went awesome!

It went great, there will be videos from it soon.

For the past couple months I have just been going to school, hanging out with friends, drinking, partying, dating, trying not to care. I am on a different path, but it’s fun, and seems to be leading somewhere alright.

I am still doing improv and Comedy Sportz, which is going real well. But other than that, I am now on a break from theatre mostly. Which is good and well needed.

I will update the blog just like I used to and I will continue to redesign the format. Check back for updates. I have a lot of stories to tell from over the last few months. Silly, ridiculous, drunken shenanagans.

I am sure that I am forgetting a bunch of things, but there will be plenty of time to go over them.

as always thanks for checking out DevinRitchie.com, and check back real soon! I really appreciate all the hits I get.

Here’s to new directions. (hehe, glee joke)

Peace

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